I seriously dun understand
Both sides are coming up with different stories
Which doesnt match
And I dunno who to listen to, let alone trust
They say trust is a big word
But arent family ties based on trust?
For goodness's sake
I'm in the midst of examinations
And my concentration spans have shrunk drastically
And here you are,complaining to me
Venting your frustrations on me
WHEN I'M STUDYING, OF ALL TIMES
You can always talk to me or complain to me any other time
You told me to concentrate on my studies, which I've tried HARD
But you're destroying everything
By complaining about how they are doing
How "stupid", "konyol" and "ga ada otak" to you
yada yada
Although I sometimes see some truth in the things you said
So wad if I'm their daughter?!
Why are you venting your frustration you had on them to me?
Yes, I do appreciate it all
For telling me their conditions and everything
Since they have ALWAYS refused to tell me ANYTHING
Due to some freaking idiotic reasons they had
Like dun wan me to worry or some other shit
(precisely why I HATE it the most when ppl says that to me)
Hello?! A family shud go through all these difficult times TOGETHER
Why are you excluding me of all these?
SCREW IT
It makes me feel like I'm an outsider

Are you going to take away my sense of belongings further?
I already dun belong to anywhere
Not here, not there
By excluding me, then wad?

Next time if you're frustrated over them
TELL THEM OFF YOURSELF
I can't do much since they themselves all all talk
They say YES and everything
But they dun do wad they preach
I'm doing wad I can over here
Wad everyone wants me to do
No, wad the ADULTS wan me to do
Then let me do it with peace

I have no life
I've always been living on other people's expectations
But I've driven to one corner
I tried my best
Not my very best?
So I've not done enough?
I guess it will nvr be enough
But I've had enough
Can't take it anymore
I feel like
I'm just a tool, a yardstick
To see whose are the better ones
Just for the glory, titles, respect
Like a mannequin

Basically I dunno whose words to trust
Not even my family at times
They told me not to do it
But they themselves did it
OH WOW
So you wan me to follow your footsteps?

Wad am I?
Am I deemed to fail?
To be the inferior ones at all time?
Is my worth measured by my family's background?
How well they did?
Even if I do well in things
It was nvr good enough in their eyes
Then why am I
Doing all these things
More of for their sake
And not mine
As a way to prove myself
My worth and everything

Nazakenai
Pathetic beyond words

Wad a post
Heh

I'm supposed to live
Not for others (except God)
But for my own

Why do You always seems so distant?
I wan to draw strength from You
I wan to rely on You

feilicia
10 june 1992
maybe short temper at times n level headed at times .
wanna run away from this 'home' =.=
wanna learn violin real badly!!!
i want to be taller!
missing SINGAPORE PPL!
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