No matter how hard I tried
No matter how hard I was hurting
Those who I had hoped that they would notice
Didn't notice it
Whereas those who I didn't really expect
Found something was wrong with me
I was touched
Glad,grateful
This thought me to appreciate them
That they are friends worth keeping


I can't take this anymore
Just can't
It's pilling up
Too much
That it's suffocating me
They told me not to care
Don't be bothered by it
But how to?!
Yeah I did what I could
Guess it wasn't enough
Those who are supposed to see it didn't
In fact,there's only one person who sees it
Can't help to feel dejected
Disappointed when I shouldn't
To the wrong group of people
People call me 'nerd','study freak' whatever it is
They just dunno the reason behind it all
They can't understand & they will never
I'm surprised that she could
And i'm happy of course
She noticed that
I become the so called 'study freak'
'Cos that's the only thing I can do to compensate it all
By my grades
But 'cos of all these
It has affected it greatly
I doubt I can compensate it well enough
Everything I do will never be enough

Just wanna thank Anii
If you were a guy,I would definitely fallen in love wid ya!!>.<

It's been so long since I last updated my blog!
Eons ago

Anyway there's nothing but stress stress and more stress

Today I had air rifle training
And my standard dropped like no one's business
=.=
Argh and was 'humiliated' by the coach
1st target: 'lotus' cos got so many random holes all over
But the score is not so bad lo!72/100!!!
But no grouping =.=
2nd target: 'caterpillar/dragonfly' ... coach and I were speechless...
Though score was abit better than the 1st round...76/100
3rd target: 'bu hao' ... I knew he wud say that lo...
No grouping... 3rd year of grouping without standard...HUMILIATING
SCHOOL TEAM SOME MORE...SIGH!
4th target: another 'bu hao' as the coach shakes his head =.=
Going to depression mode while still continue to shootthe last card
5th target: (looks better,got grouping)*stare at coach for tiny glimpse of hope*
...'hai hao' that's that... so depressing...
Get my post?
I doubt anyone understands
If only I can scan my cards and put them here...
Tata for now

STRESS

feilicia
10 june 1992
maybe short temper at times n level headed at times .
wanna run away from this 'home' =.=
wanna learn violin real badly!!!
i want to be taller!
missing SINGAPORE PPL!
sleepy head

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