i dunno wad to update about



I guess coming back to indo does have its pros n cons
pros: my mindset broadened!
now i can concentrate on my studies!
n besides, since i hate it here, that hate will drive me to do more!
i promise i'll go far far away frm here!
although other adults says that i'm being irresponsible for leaving my mum if i were to go
but they only care about my mum this my mum that
since no one cares about my well being, i will take care of it myself
i really NEED the time myself, away from my (cursed) big family
furthermore, i'm not the only child
wad about my bro?
y dun anyone plan for him to do this n that?
y is it only me?
besides he's a guy
so shudnt he be the one who takes care of the f.a.m.i.l.y?
wad the heck
well thats precisely y i hate myt own fam
the biased-ness is so thick!

i'm sure i'll be happier outside
i'll just endure this round
i noe n i believe that He is training me for my future
i'll pray more for HIs guidance
if i get my emotions n feelings to get me through
i'm sure i'll be ruined n everything else will
sigh sigh sigh

I guess i'm experiencing hell
n i dun wan to experience it again
my youth days are full of bitter-ness!

In a dilemma!!!
Physics or Bio+Chem?!
Astrophysics or Biotech?!
(if biotech) Indusrtial or health sciences?!
ugh

PHYSICS REDO ON THURS
MATH RETEST ON TUES (I PASSED, though)
sigh
i tot EOY was over
but i guess NOT
computer also
sian =.=
COOKING ON 2 JUNE!!!
TIRAMISU!!!!

I FLUNKED PHYSICS!!!!!!!
oh man
was expecting that
but man
i disappoint the teachers
cos they dun expect me to flunk any
but one
sigh
i think mr setyo sort of bet (not wid money)
with other teachers that i wont fail any test =.=
but i did
so shud i be happy for him or sad?=p
ANYWAY NICHOLAS
dun apologise =D
's not ur fault =)

oh man
i guess God didnt want me to sin
for having those ugly ugly thoughts
my previous post is gone
it was so emo
so dark that i doubt my close friends wouldnt think that i'd ever think of that
killing and stuff
commit suicide etc
pure hatred blah blah blah
dun judge a book by its cover
i'm not that kind and innocent
well no longer
maybe i was in the past
shrugs who noes
well no one noes
man i feel like a mad woman
talking no sense tsk tsk tsk

i thought i cud get over it
but only to realise
when someone mentions it
it all resurfaced
the frustrations, hatred, pure hatred which shouldn't be there, depair, agony
and worst of all irreplacable rue
nicholas said something which he never intended to do any harm
but yeah it made me remember y i wrote that at the back of my note
"don't take things for granted"
i did take things for granted
thinking that "yeah, i'll just concentrate on my work. thats wad they wanted me to do. i'll talk to them when its over. i'll see them soon anyway..."
but in reality i cudnt
i didnt even noe when was the last time i talked, hear his voice
but now its too late cos his already gone forever
i feel like i'm such a horrendous daughter, unfillial
so now i can only cry when i remember...

A little recollection

YAY!
finally EOY over
but i think i flunk math n phy
A lvl standard, or so they say
more like S1 standard to me lo
-.- stupid timmy neutron
i passed up the wrong hmwrk cum test
so i'm gonna get 20?!
so absurd!
i worked hard ok
at least i TRIED to do ur crazy hmwk
unlike most ppl in the class who just copied OURS!
BLEAH!
besides i slept for merely 4 hrs just to study for ur test!!!!
physics is a killer!
study from afternoon till 1 in the morning
then 5:25 wake up to STUDY again
wow =.=
argh
i lost my beauty sleep
n so i cant concentrate on bio -.- ugh
double jeopardy?

I UPDATED LE!!!!
will update some more
probably to show my horrendous results!

THX PONG PONG FOR SCANNING SOME NOTES =D=D=D=D=D=D

feilicia
10 june 1992
maybe short temper at times n level headed at times .
wanna run away from this 'home' =.=
wanna learn violin real badly!!!
i want to be taller!
missing SINGAPORE PPL!
sleepy head

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